石榴

買了石榴來吃。想起曾經有一個男子細心為我把石榴的果實（還是種子？）一顆顆剝下來讓我吃。一晃眼已經是10年前的事了。

物不是。人也非了。

重遊

兩個星期前到Haderslev參加朋友的兒子的洗禮。好友PS剛好也在，於是就順便帶她去看我住了四年的地方。

通過一個小隧道來到這個階梯，這個地方我想我走過千次。唸書的時候，住的地方很靠近大學，若非必要，我都是走路到學校。再次走過這個地方，是以遊客的身份。

這棵大樹是我在Haderslev最喜歡的一棵樹了。曾經我們就在這裡練瑜伽。

搬離這個地方也不過三個月，可是卻彷彿是很久很久以前的事了。

好的。

“好的。
讓彼此都溫暖，
即便在傷心的時候。”

好嗎。

“讓彼此都溫暖，
 即便在傷心的時候。”

從兩個座位開始

I met Gerda and Heinz when I was on a cruise in New Zealand. My friend and I were seated on the bus, front seats as they were getting on the bus. Gerda looked at us and I immediately sensed that they might appreciate/needed the seats more than we did, so we offered to give up our seats. They thanked us profusely. We bumped into each other on the cruise and Gerda thanked me again. She said Heinz had pain in his leg and they were hoping they could get the front seats and were disappointed when they got on the bus.

We talked very briefly and she offered that I could come and stay at their place if I were going to Melbourne. I told her I planned to, but it wouldn't be convenient to stay at her place. She asked: 'You are going with your friend?' And she met Penny who was on the trip with me. I told her there would be three of us. She paused and considered and told me we are welcome to stay with them. I got her address and a month later, the three of us went to stay at Gerda and Heinz. We were very grateful as we saved a lot of money and I was very happy because I could spend time talking to Gerda and Heinz. I remember I woke up rather early to sit with Gerda and we would talk. Heinz went to bed late, so I would stay up and talk to him. I was very tired when I was there but was more than happy to oblige. They are both very wise and kind.

My friend Moon was celebrating her 30th birthday in Melbourne and sweet Gerda baked her a cheese cake.

They were in the late and mid 70s when I met them. Five years have passed and they are in their early and mid 80s now. We are still in touch. They don't have email account, so we would write to each other. Gerda is normally the one that writes. Four years ago, I received a card from Heinz and he told me he missed the time we spent together and asked me to go and visit them. It was such a beautiful letter he had written. I call and write to them a few times a year and it has been like that for the past five years.

Today, I called them. (I was meant to call them last week, but by the time I could call, it was rather late in Melbourne.) Someone picked up the phone and I asked to speak to Gerda. I was told to wait and Heinz came to the phone. I was happy to hear Heinz as he has hearing problem and he doesn't like to talk on the phone. He sounded very happy to hear from me and then he broke the news to me. He told me Gerda is terminally ill and doctor speculated she has only days to live. Heinz sounded very calm. He said we all have to go one day and I broke into tears. I am glad that they have their children and grandchildren living there or close by and I know they are well taken care off.

Both of them had been rather ill in the past five years and they went through quite a lot. I am feeling so sad to hear the news today. I also regretted that I couldn't make the call last week as Gerda was still well back then. All these while, I know they are very fond of me and it's a mutual feelings. In our short conversation today, Heinz told me that they both love me very much. He asked me to go visit them again if I ever go to Melbourne. I would. I really would.

This beautiful couple reminds me of the kindness of human beings and I am so very grateful and feel very priviledged to be given the opportunity to know them better.

This picture was taken on June 2, 2010, the night before we left Melbourne.

好友YY問我會不會到墨爾本探望Heinz，我說我會。她說如果我真的決定要去探望他，她會陪我去。這句話深深溫暖我的心。謝謝你。

偶爾

我偶爾，很偶爾，也是可以很嫵媚的。

我葡萄牙的時候，和朋友決定過一晚的夜生活，於是就裝扮好自己才出門。

我們晚上11點多出門搭巴士。結果一上巴士就吸引所有目光。好友說通常她出外跳舞、喝酒都會搭德士。我想了就覺得好笑。上車的人把我們從頭到腳看一遍。（不會以為我們是妓女吧?!) 怎麼可能！我們這麼美！

有朋

好友來丹麥度假兼探望我。很開心的。

我到哥本哈根接她，也順便在那裡當兩天的旅客。

上次一次旅行已經是5年多前的事情了。

關於那些風花雪月的事

我在倫敦的時候，有一段時間是騎腳踏車去上班的。雖然後來發生車禍（被汽車撞，然後司機逃離案發現場，因為錯在他。），可是三個星期後，我又開始騎腳踏車。離開倫敦後，在紐西蘭工作的時候也騎腳踏車。後來就一直沒有機會了。

我新的工作地點離開我的新家約10公里，於是我有開始騎腳踏車上班的日子了。

我早上六點半離開家裡，每天的景色都不一樣。我好喜歡太陽緩緩升起的時刻，可是我想夏令營時間結束後，我就不會再在去學校的途中看到日出了。

我搬家後的第一個客人Andy。他是我前同事。我們一起工作3個月後我就離開新加坡了。距離上一次見面已經是5年前了。那時我要到德國唸書。

我們在我的辦公桌前拍照。

我的新城市 - Sønderborg，更靠近德國了。有海港、綠油油的公園等。我好喜歡這個城市。它給了我很多很多的正能量。

很多人說：你現在有工作、有家，是時候找個男朋友或老公了。

真的是說這麼容易啊！

學校有個同事知道我很喜歡向日葵，他從他家的院子裡摘了一些給我。說真的，看到向日葵這樣放在我的辦公桌上心裡是非常感動的。我那天上完兩節課，身體有點不舒服，看到的時候眼睛濕濕的。也想起曾經有一個男子說他要帶著向日葵向我走來。

我到車站接朋友的時候穿的是藍色風衣，還有亂到不行的頭髮。我剛放工。他說我像剛從芭裡工作回來的農夫。他娘的！

第二天，我馬上穿上花裙子！老娘也是可以像個女人的。

我搬家了

新家還未整理好，只有客廳可以見人。

新家比舊家大很多，可以把我最喜歡的躺椅放在客廳了。

紅色的沙發是新買的二手貨。搬家前一直希望可以買到一個我喜歡的紅色沙發，可是紅色沙發不多，還要是我喜歡的顏色就更少了。另外，價錢還要合理。我很幸運，那個人願意賣給我。他們送來的時候也是我第一次看到沙發。滿意極了。

地毯是從圖尼西亞帶回來的。感謝當時DK熱情贊助，說要給三個月後生日的我買禮物。雖然五彩繽紛，可是在紅色沙發旁看起來卻也不突兀。

那個在大安森林公園的你

是上個月吧，台北有大颱風，許多人的家裡斷水斷電。你那是還在台北念中文。家裡沒電也沒網絡，有兩、三天你都在大安森林公園坐著、上網，與世界聯繫。

我們聊了好幾次天。剛好週末，我在家裡。你拍了一些照片傳過來，公園裡有好多樹都倒下了，看起來淒慘。

不知道為何，那個你一個人坐在公園裡的板凳上與我在臉書聊天的樣子一直都揮之不去。想起來會感動。